So few days back, I counted my hours for March and my pay, I realised I would not have enough to pay my school fees for the next term. I’m pretty worried, but not so because I somehow feel I could lean back on my dad? My relationship with him became less awkward after my facebook status. I mean, my schooling allowance is purely me. He just need to fork out for my school fees.. I don’t think he has the money though, since he donated most of it to the building of a school in Thailand. I can’t complain, it was for the better good.
I do hope he comes home before the fees are due, so maybe I could ask him for about $500 out of the $700 I have to pay (He’ve given $2000 previously). If he doesn’t, then I’ll have to make a huge change to my lifestyle to the point that I have to skip on meals or eat the cheapest in whatever food places I’m going. The funny thing is, my classmates thinks I’m filthy rich. Maybe because I don’t have a Chinese surname, and he probably thinks that I’m from a rich family like all western expats do. I like that he thinks that way, but its not. I don’t know how he thinks that way, but I’ve been behaving as poorly as I could. Like eating cheap food, saving deals coupon on my phone, buying cheap art materials and going around sourcing for cheap printing shops. However, I am subconsciously trying to keep that (fake) reputation, because I don’t really want anyone to know I’m that poor.
Since the starting of March, I’ve been religiously tracking my every spending on this Iphone app, Toshl. I love this app to bits, and I can learn so much more from where my money is going. Before my financial woes few years back, I spent wildly. My boyfriend, Jerrome, didn’t like it very much and made me write where all my spending went to. It became an on-off habit which proved useful when I was thrown in this big money mess.
My budget for the month was $300; $10 everyday! But apparently I overshot it, by a lot. And it’s not the end of March yet. *cries inside* I did not add in my major expenses like overdued bills, because there were over $100. I will, next month though.
As you can see, I have stupid money wastage on stupid doctor fees. And that I ate a lot. Personal is when I started shopping for my own benefits, like buying a bra after using staff discount and giftcard. It was only $.70 so whatever. I can’t remember the rest of my personal spendings though.
Anyway, starting today, I will strive to
- not eat during tea break (where I usually indulge in $2 chocolate brownies)
- not eat night snacks after school (which ends at 10pm and it is inevitable that people get hungry)
- not shop and use the ‘personal’ tag (I can do this )
Only 3 things, should be easy. Like for yesterday, I was craving for fried snacks after school ($4) but I went home and made peanut butter sandwich (free). Yay, $4 saved! I’m still craving for fried food.
PS/ Did you see the new theme I had on? I made it myself. First ever wordpress theme!